International YOU Day!

i've been listening to 'International You Day' by No Use For A Name, quite a nice song, such straight forward lyric and i bet, girls would love guys to sing this song while strumming to their guitar..here's the lyric...p.s; i've sang this song to my girl and you guess what..she fall asleep! huh.. 0_0"

i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adorded
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more

i'm coming home today
to wipe the tears right from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

my life is incomplete
my rites are absolutely gone
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone

semester 2 is ending...

hmm..it has been nearly a year since the first time i step into this college..i gotta say, this is the first year i step out from the comfort of home and live on my own.. my own decision, taking care of my foods and drinks and yes, spending money on my own! i have to say,there's a lot of change in me, i now know what does it mean to be annoy, to be hurt, to feel hunger, to feel pain and everything! i know now how to hate wisely, know how to live with others who seems too pathetic to live on their own..yeah, f**k those 'pengampu'. it nearly the end of the semester and i hope to be able to continue to next semester and finally graduate from this institution to become a PPKP. that is my hopes and dreams..as in, the lyrics that i've wrote few years back. i met new people, new characteristic, new room, and to my amazement, new taste for foods and heavy drinks. i'm not such a heavy drinker before but, trust me now, i can take on 'langkau', 'cap apek', you just name it..haha..alcohol good for your social life and as so for my social circuit, my fellas are as heavy drinker as i am..not a word to be utter in front of your parent, i guess..semester 2 is ending, a year will be ended, a new start will begin..to sums it up, life has been both great and bad for me this year..as now i know, life isn't a bed of roses..exam is starting next week and i hope i can do my best despite the lack of time that i spent on studying..ahh~ carpe diem! to the infinity and beyond..

i'm a creep?

have you ever listen to 'Creep' by Radiohead? here's the lyric for you who have not listen to this song..this song have a really deep meaning for those who can understand it..i think most of you out there would know the meaning..this song should remind us that, we all are not perfect..there's no body perfect for god's sake! still, there is some people who can't stand of being a lil' bit off weight, short and bla3..be proud of yourself damn it! what's wrong in being different?? that's my point of view and i know for sure..i love to be different..i know, i'm fat and people love to remind me of that fact..but still, i know who i am..and i'm proud of it..hmm~ here's the lyric..
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

i'm 19 today...

hmm~ it's 28/10/09! I'm 19 what more i can ask for?? a year older..hmm..i feel really lonely today..till, my girl, drop by and celebrate my birthday with me..hmm~ she bought me this small cute cake for my birthday~ ha3..that's all that i do for my birthday this year..no family by my side, no much awaited present from dad and especially my sis~ hmm~ my sis gave me rm100..which she banked in this evening..i'm gonna keep the money..i don't feel like buying anything..hmm~ btw, i'm here in my room, listening to 'Stand By Me' by Oasis..hmm..feel a lot better?? nah..i couldn't seem to understand what happening between me n' the world..hmm..i just wish to be home~ that's it! arthur happy lonely birthday to you..

Metal, Hardcore, Punk...you name it!

I've always been fascinated with the words that people utter when they asked me the kind of songs I listen to. My answer simply, something heavy! People will always thought that people who listens to such songs as simply drug addicts or anti-Christ or religion of any kind. The typical mindset of people! Hahahaha..as simply as when people see others with tattoos..they will associate the person with gangsters or crooks! I've always listen to heavy songs ever since my childhood starting with Metallica and everything that heavy..well, my crazed for distorted music start with butterfingers! i start listening to them since year 6..i still remember the tape i borrowed from a friend. ha3.. lately, i listen to some hardcore after befriend with some hardcore fellas..at first i thought i just mere screaming n' trashing but then i realised something more in the lyrics..beneath all the screams and growling..there's something political n' rebel in the lyrics. just like 'Infidelity' by Second Combat! Listen to it! and there's Restraint..there's Youth Of Today, Sick Of It all, Warzone and tonnes other! hmm~ yes, i do get some comment for the songs i listen from my friends..they said that they also can play those songs..blah3..hate it when people sums it in such a way..this is as simple as people stereotyping a person..i'm not someone who easily judge other..i try to understand people rather than labeling people..well, fuck those! hmm, i'm still a teenager who still learn the world..i know that my tattoo which symbolise i'm an iban and how far away i am from home will be label as trash for others..blah3..i getting a koi fish next time..don't worry..i'm off for now!

Totally sucks!!!!

This blog is my tribute towards CELCOM!!!! I wonder how do you guys get all the awards while your broadband service is ranked zeo here in S'wak! I've read mags about your supposely 'super fast' service but the truth is..i've always get 20kbps service here! Hey, people!!!! I mean corparate pigs!!!! Don't give away awards as you like!! Please keep up to the standard as you have promise!! If I'm in somewhere deep in Sarawak..I'll gladly accept the speed of the connection but, I'm in Kuching for god's sake!!!! I know that CELCOM won't read this page as these corparate pigs will ignore the credibility of their service for the money that they got! My god..

sick, down, no mood, confused, everything..

today, i'm totally not me! i don't know what's happening to me, all i know is, it's all fake! i don't know who am i anymore and i'm fucking hating it! i'm sick right now, i have a running nose, the temp and the fatigue..i'm fucking hating this..hmm..i'm not in the mood for everything..i'm just looking forward for tomorrow..hopefully its gonna be a better day for me..enough of this torment.. i just want to free from those fuckers who can't seem to know me from deep inside..last nite, i went over to Monkey Tattoo to re-did my tattoo..it hurts! i love it anyway, for me, it's another way to vents all the frustrations inside..i'm not me..i'm not me..the remedy for all this sadness n' frustrations??? songs from zee avi..

In the class!!!!

Hah..the same old boring day for me as no lectures are conducted today..damn it! why must we stay in the class eventho' there are no class?? total waste of time!!! btw..i haven't got a chance to have a good night sleep..i can't sleep last night..lots are running through in my mind. i only gotta chance to sleep on 4.30 a.m. after i went online to check the score of last night premier league match! thanks god CHELSEA wins against LIVERPOOL! no offense folks but, i totally think CHELSEA rocks! with only one lost in 8 matches this season..i think the chances are high for CHELSEA to win the cup this year..who knows, even the UEFA CHAMPIONS LEAGUE CLUB! (MAYBE..T__T) btw, today might be the day that we're presenting our 'sains tingkahlaku' assignment..huh..totally hate it! i don't know why..i hate this college..huh..my God Arthur wake up! your finally will be like in weeks! yeah..weeks!!! i haven't start with my revisions and only god knows what's going thru my mind..alas comrades..this is your final fight of the year!!! wake up Arthur!!! wake up!!!!!

Hah..one nice day!

Ahh..it’s quite an exhausting day for me today..finally i’ve got chance to meet my lady for the first time of the week. I’m missing her a lot..that’s for sure! We’re celebrating the first time we on a date together. Too many celebrations eh? Hahahahah..well, it’s the first time i’m having stable relationship, we’ve been together for a year and i’ve to admit i love her so much! Confession hah? Btw today, she bought me a nice black cardigan which i’ve been longing to since i’ve my eye on it! Nice one, dude! I love it!!! Well, in picture above, you will see how the cardigan look on me. And also, we watch G-Force 3D! Nice movie, especially the 3D! I’ve never seen such a big guinea pig before in my life..hahah..it’s all sums up to avery nice day for me today!!! Yeah!!!! I'm too tired to tell the whole story..let me rest and finish my blog later k? hahahaha...btw, i'm changing the title of my blog, cause my brother thinks it is soooo BRITNEY!