When you don't know...

what to do with your ASTRO decoder, call for assistance and wallah! The volume-probs fixed in no-time!

Tattoos I've so far....

BUNGAI TERUNG. That's the traditional Iban tattoo. Bungai Terung tattoo is the first tattoo that an Iban should get when one would get a tattoo. So why not, get a tattoo in honour of your tradition rather than the one that are 'IN', right? I get this done at Monkey Tattoo Studio in Kuching. Believe me, when you want to get an Iban tribal tattoo, Jeremy is the man that you should get. Being my first ink on my body, I'm proud with pair eventhough, it fade a bit right now but, a little touch up is on the way. Healing of the tattoo was quite hard for me, because just a day after the tattoo were done, I've to go for travelling to Lundu and you guess it, infection got in the way. Trust me, you don't want to get infection on your tattoo always keep yourself clean and antiseptic cream would be your new bestfriend! Thanks god, Jeremy is kind enough ( he is still kind, ha3..) to give me free touch up after all, it was all my fault. All is done and my next tattoo is,
KOI FISH. According to Japanese references, a Koi Fish tattoo symbolize, the phase of your life. For me, a Koi Fish heading up toward the Dragon Gate shows, I'm still heading towards my goals in life and as, there are a lot of hardships on the way, Koi Fish also symbolize PERSEVERANCE. And yes, perseverance as it is, it took me about 2 months to complete it. I decided to go for Half- sleeve tattoo and maybe an extension in the near future. This tattoo, means a lot to me. All the hardships in life can be CONQUERED if you have a will. An appropiate combination to a Koi Fish tattoo would be a DRAGON TATTOO because, in Japanese mythology, Koi Fish that have succeed in swimming towards the Dragon Gate would become a DRAGON. It's a maybe for an extension.
Here, my picture with my tattoos. More of it to come!

When life...

start to get you in between the crossroads...SMILE!

So sick

I'm listening to Ne-Yo's so sick. Can't imagine why I'm listening to that song. I guess, I've some problems with my relationship nowadays...everything is okay..but, i just hate it when we fight every other day..i love her...really..i've everything figured out for both of us, the cars, the house and the life that i wanted to lead with her..maybe it's just a part of me that being so sad bout everything..the last thing i want right now is break-up. I just can't handle them. I know, I'm not the most eligible bachelor around, i'm not perfect in some ways but, i can assure her that my love is true and with a career in hand, i can tell her that I got everything on the run for both of us. I just hope that she wouldn't pull another stunt like the previous one..I know jealousy is bad, but it's good sometimes cause you get to now that she's paying attention and she loves you.


Love hurts because it feels good....

aha...the fresh look!

It's wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy beeeeeennnnnn toooooooooo looooooonnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg since my last post! Finally, after a few tweaks on my blog layout, it's time to start blogging once more. So, what's up with all the months with no post? Nothing much really, it's pretty much packed with assignments and whole lot of lectures and studies. Btw, I'm not going to write much on this one. Wait for another update.

why i've decided to write another blog...

It seems like my last post was a lightyear away, I've been busy with all the activities that I shouldn't have done and blah3...I've started reading blogs again for my morning breakfast.. (yeah, i consider reading as a breakfast for my mind..how thoughtful). I've reading many blogs about cars lately, particularly about Nissan Skyline R34, a car that I've been admiring for years.. In fact, if I've a really deep wallet and freakishly wealthy parent, I would have buy a CBA-R35 or at least BNR34 well, I will really be happy if I am to own a turbo-ed kancil right now. *laughs* as an admirer of cars (i'm not an owner yet) it seems that buying cars is like getting into marriage, yes, you've to care for her, live with her and love her, you surely don't wanna buy a car that you don't love right? I mean a car supposed to be love! Anyway, I'm really bored to be in class at the moment as there are no lecturers around and I really got nothing else to do. As I sunk away in boredom, I'm off to dreams about cars which I can never buy, yeah, whaddaya know, I'm just a typical Malaysian who works for the government..peace out!

months since my last post

i'm definitely in state of insomnia now, i can't sleep, i can't do anything...i'll be sitting for my exam tomorrow...i've never been this depressed during exam time before, maybe it's because i'm now studying law...which i can only describe as ridiculous! does law really need long, confusing, boring sentences??????? no wonder when people done something wrong, they don't even knew it was forbidden by law....ha3...by the way, i was memorizing instead of understanding...because, in KPPK 2213, your answer must be exactly the same as in the Akta Makanan 1983...the whole book to memorise? i rather die! i'm quite depressed...and definitely, homesick too...i couldn't wait to be home which is, next wednesday! totally sick of laws!

i'm tired

i can't wait to be in sibu again..this weekend. i'm having my mid-sem break and i would like to rest a bit from all college stuffs. hopefully, no assignment! and yes, i'm a bit cranky now..not in the mood at all. well, life in college is so boring and stressful..ha3..well, at least i got a job in the end. can't wait for the sem break! and, i've been working on my latest addition to my body..working on sessions but, it's worth it! i wouldn't upload the pic..untill it's finish so wait up! well, chow!

In lack of photos and ideas...

Hah..i guess it's months since my last update. nothing interesting happen tho' in those period. and i just got my dongle fixed so now, i can online 24-7 as i wish. ha3..great! what have i been doing for the last few weeks? well, quite a lot of partying and eating. one thing for sure, i have lost a few kilos..i can finally use my surf pants again! hooray! thanks mee sedaap! hahahah..well, few days ago, my coursemate and i were taken to Kpg Tabuan something2 to catch mosquito for study. damn, now i got mosquito bites all over my body. quite tiring tho' but i've some fun. it's way better than spending hours in college! hahahahah...and last week, i went to Tambak to watch some cars racing. damn, i've fallen in love with v-tec! such a nice sound..the roar..the deep roar! i wish i have enough money to buy Honda cars..hush..just a dream i guess. and yes, my friends and i went to SOHO and party..nothing i need to explain tho'..you get the pic.. clubbing scene in Kuching is way better than Sibu..my next journey would be either Paragon or Barzing..ha3..just wait untill payday! that's all i guess in conclusion what i've been doing..besides endless lectures and credit hour hunting!

what's up with 2010?!

i got to admit that this is one of the worst year in my life..it started with sadness, sorrow and not to mention it's getting on my nerve! i never have been expecting it would be as bad as this. hmm..today i got trouble with mr.pengarah and the gang for some issues i rather not be telling about. it's all a mess! and yet, the year just started! life is another chore that i've to put up to.. please tell me, that life is worth to be redeem! i simply couldn't find any joy..hmm..i feel the tense.. it's breaking me apart..please help me someone..i just need someone to bail me out! and plus, i hate this college! if mr.SIRIM are reading this, KKAK doesn't deserve the MS:ISO standard because they do nothing to make life better for the students here instead, they extort us, threaten us with our bonds and implement stupid and crazy rules which for most of free and civilised being couldn't accpet! please, be considerate! how would they feel if their sons and daughters in my shoes? i just want to break free..all i can say..WTF!!!!! F**k!!!!!!! F**K!!!!

lost..never be back again..

it has been awhile since my last update. and in that while. i've lost one of my trusted and closest friend. Doster. that's his name. i've never thought i could lost a friend like him. he's always been the one with the jokes and laughter. everybody seems to be happy when he is around and, i know that for sure because we all still laugh when we remember the good times we had with him. i don't even regard him as a friend but, as one of my brothers. we always have that brotherhood bonds in our band. i know i've always been a really good friend. we always fight and argue in most of the things but, brothers also had fights right? i still remember when we argue all over the weekend when we're doing a gig in Mukah. he's always been the one with the big mouth. he's the funniest guy i've ever known. but, sadly on 17 January 2010. he left us without even saying goodbye. it has been a hard time for him to undergo such a tiring and painful treatment. hmm..the clocks seem to stop ticking the minute i receive the bad news. i've never cried that bad ever since form 5. You'll always be remembered my friend. eventhough you're not here with us. but you'll live on in our melodies and lyrics... Rest In Peace..

never had a chance!

it' been a while since last post and i've never truly had a chance to write a blog bcoz simply, broadband connection totally sucks and i've been busy. hmm..i felt terribly down today.. everything seems to be fuck up in a way that i totally mess everything for me. i just don't know what to say and i do what i'm doing the best..drink till you are drunk! i know and i believe my addiction to nicotine which is harazdous anyway totally help to sort out the pain inside..you will know that i'm not in the mood when you see me smoking the fag continously till i sleep..and that's what i do today..hmm..what life's all about anyway? when life seems to be fucked up and you know nothing on how to solve it..thanks god..i finally found a room mate which suits me well..i'm not a coosy person but, in this case...i don't want to have mate that i can't talk to..well..here it is my life! totally fucked up shit!

so what changes in last two decades??

it's 2010! yeah, i celebrate another new year here in Kuching. not quite really having fun but, it's ok. so what changes in the last two decades (nearly)??? hmm...a lot..it seems that i can't never leave behind my past..it keeps on haunting me and i've keep on thinking 'if's. do i regret over the past? maybe. do i have anything to regret? i don't know. live continue as it is. i'm really determine to shed off few unnecessary kilos this year! i don't want to be plaque with all kind of diseases when i'm old. i've love, i've hate, i've been knocked under. that's my live, seems pretty obvious, we can't get everything that we want in this life. not that beautiful girl you use to adore. not that nice car that you see. not that big wonderful house that you love. seems a bit pessimistic but, i know what to expect in my life. that's life all about. anyway, welcome to our second year together dear, i love you, Michelle.